Post by sidonie on May 1, 2011 4:04:15 GMT 10
Title: Separation
Rating: PG-13 (for intense angst)
Word Count: 465
Pairing: Gary/Raoul – Team Moustache Curtains
Round/Fight: 2/C
Summary: Raoul watches his life fall apart.
Author's Note: A sequel and prequel to my R1 fics Looking In and Break, My Heart, respectively.
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“What are you doing?”
“You know perfectly well.”
“Jon is asking after you. He's worried.”
“Jon can go boil his head.”
“Listen Raoul, I don't know what in Mithros' name you're up to, but I am not amused. You disappeared, your friends are concerned, and I would like an explanation!”
The larger knight stood abruptly, regarding Gary with reddened eyes. “You thought I wouldn't notice?” he snarled. “Or did you just not care?”
Gary's lips thinned. “If you're talking about Cythera—”
“Of course I'm talking about Cythera!” Raoul spat. “What, am I not enough for you anymore? Or are you just looking for a woman to bed so the poxy servants will stop spreading rumors?”
“That's unfair. I like Cythera, and I certainly enjoy talking with her, but we are not lovers. You're being an idiot.”
Raoul stepped closer, now nose-to-nose with Gary. “Am I?” he whispered, tears standing in his eyes. He reached out a trembling hand, laying his palm against the other knight's cheek. The corner of his mouth twisted bitterly as he traced the outline of his jaw and mouth.
“Am I really? I know you like bedding women. So tell me that wouldn't be easier and safer for you.”
There was a long pause. “It would be,” Gary finally murmured.
“I knew it. I knew it. You've been thinking about taking up with her.”
“Maybe I have! Is that so wrong? I—Mithros, Raoul, I don't want to hide all my life! I don't want to kiss in the shadows. I don't want to have a lover I can never touch in public, never marry, never have children with!”
Raoul flinched. “You don't want me.”
Gary took a deep breath, eyes cold. “Maybe I don't.”
All the air went out of Raoul as he stumbled back, shaking with the effort of holding in his tears. He took a shuddering breath and met Gary's familiar brown eyes, only to see rejection there.
“No,” he rasped. “You can't. Gary, I—you can't do this to me. You can't just leave.”
“Why not?” the other knight demanded, livid with a mixture of rage and grief. “I have other options. Better options, ones that don't involve everyone in the capitol talking about my deviant tendencies.”
“BUT I DON'T!” Raoul screamed. “Maybe you can just jump ship whenever you like, but some of us don't have the luxury of playing both sides! Some of us can't just decide to turn traitor whenever we get scared!”
Gary, his face pale and his eyes blazing, regarded his friend and lover with an unreadable expression. “I'm sorry,” he whispered.
And just like that, he was gone.
QC by: journeycat
Rating: PG-13 (for intense angst)
Word Count: 465
Pairing: Gary/Raoul – Team Moustache Curtains
Round/Fight: 2/C
Summary: Raoul watches his life fall apart.
Author's Note: A sequel and prequel to my R1 fics Looking In and Break, My Heart, respectively.
~~~~~~
“What are you doing?”
“You know perfectly well.”
“Jon is asking after you. He's worried.”
“Jon can go boil his head.”
“Listen Raoul, I don't know what in Mithros' name you're up to, but I am not amused. You disappeared, your friends are concerned, and I would like an explanation!”
The larger knight stood abruptly, regarding Gary with reddened eyes. “You thought I wouldn't notice?” he snarled. “Or did you just not care?”
Gary's lips thinned. “If you're talking about Cythera—”
“Of course I'm talking about Cythera!” Raoul spat. “What, am I not enough for you anymore? Or are you just looking for a woman to bed so the poxy servants will stop spreading rumors?”
“That's unfair. I like Cythera, and I certainly enjoy talking with her, but we are not lovers. You're being an idiot.”
Raoul stepped closer, now nose-to-nose with Gary. “Am I?” he whispered, tears standing in his eyes. He reached out a trembling hand, laying his palm against the other knight's cheek. The corner of his mouth twisted bitterly as he traced the outline of his jaw and mouth.
“Am I really? I know you like bedding women. So tell me that wouldn't be easier and safer for you.”
There was a long pause. “It would be,” Gary finally murmured.
“I knew it. I knew it. You've been thinking about taking up with her.”
“Maybe I have! Is that so wrong? I—Mithros, Raoul, I don't want to hide all my life! I don't want to kiss in the shadows. I don't want to have a lover I can never touch in public, never marry, never have children with!”
Raoul flinched. “You don't want me.”
Gary took a deep breath, eyes cold. “Maybe I don't.”
All the air went out of Raoul as he stumbled back, shaking with the effort of holding in his tears. He took a shuddering breath and met Gary's familiar brown eyes, only to see rejection there.
“No,” he rasped. “You can't. Gary, I—you can't do this to me. You can't just leave.”
“Why not?” the other knight demanded, livid with a mixture of rage and grief. “I have other options. Better options, ones that don't involve everyone in the capitol talking about my deviant tendencies.”
“BUT I DON'T!” Raoul screamed. “Maybe you can just jump ship whenever you like, but some of us don't have the luxury of playing both sides! Some of us can't just decide to turn traitor whenever we get scared!”
Gary, his face pale and his eyes blazing, regarded his friend and lover with an unreadable expression. “I'm sorry,” he whispered.
And just like that, he was gone.
QC by: journeycat